I’m Not Here, and I’m Not All There
Title | I’m Not Here, and I’m Not All There |
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Artist | Daymeus |
Album | You’ve Heard Worse |
Release Date | 2018-04-27 |
Description | ? |
Lyrics | [Intro] Where is he? What is this? What are you doing? What is he doing? What's going on? Where are you? Daymeus? Where did he go? Damius... where are you? [Verse 1] Months I been seated here waitin' All for a letter or text I gave you the paper to exit this city But lately I'm wonderin', like, "was I ready to let go?" You're all alone, such unfamiliar air and it's nightmarish Though you'll never admit it, the pain is acidic and it wears away Thoughts here I won't ever say Like, you don't got time? The fuck got you floatin'? Clearly not care for your bros well-being He's—years old now and—really? You don't even know his age? I dance around the answers to the question "why" Cause you don't give a fuck? Or maybe you ain't doin' well, holdin' it in Maybe it's pride, you cuttin' blinds, knowin' I'd find out My little boy, he stubborn inside Passed down from your father and mine It's time you let it out, Dami Can you blame me? Is it a lot to ask? Shit Between fuckin' them whores and Netflix But I don't wanna pry, I see now I'm a bother, if it helps you sleep sound tell yourself this is enough It's clear you're lookin' for you I'm just sayin', I'm still here You might also like[Interlude] [Verse 2] First off, I'm not burnt you been givin' Like 5% in effort to connect I send texts, cards But since we in separate yards you can't send support in form of words Busy? Nah, your pretense is dirt Like us sayin' we not hurt, but ma's hurt And dad, he could've fuckin' died And I tell you and you get pissed at me for tellin' you Before I know exactly what the fuck's wrong I was terrified, it seemed right, you deserved to know Sorry that I needed my bro's support So quick to forget your Coolsville like you're Too cool there, in your musical lair It bites you feel alone cause I been here [Verse 3] Dami, you gotta figure this out, what do you want? You say you're passion is writing, yet you're not You ain't been to school and damn, the sand thinnin' Is it rap you wantin'? Cause they're opaque, your glasses And half full, ya glass is, you're passive So I gotta ask, do you really want this? You're tellin' everybody it's a hobby but yet You neglectin' fam, friends, avoiding a social life Relationships, and chances they can't be mended And all for this? I ain't sayin it's the wrong move But you better choose soon Before you've lost too much to go back I know you wanna see how this ends I ain't mad, you're my son and I love you Even when I ain't there And if you need help, you know I'm here [Chorus] I've lost my way, lost myself And if they come, tell 'em I'm in this hell Break me please, I'm unwell This is a cry for [Verse 4] Oh my god, I'm just so fuckin' touched Over 2 years passed, yo ass still on us? I got a new you, better Who knows just what the fuck he wants He's head of a restaurant, watchu got? Obvi a lot of fuckin' time To get yourself twisted and tangled Around that web you angled in your favor Okay, the song was lame, hon Let it go, you bitter dick I won't lie, you find your way into my mind sometimes But only sometimes and by the sec I realize it's you I usually find somethin' to better engage my thoughts Hey, you forget you're the one who cut it off? I changed or some bull, now I'm a slut? How original, I'm so sad I got dumped by this brilliant rapper Who attacks in the most un-cliche Wanna-replay way, keepsake Whatever you need to keep sane Keep mocking me, babe, I'm not there [Verse 5] Yo, have you heard about Damius Now he's a rapper (he's rapping?) He thinks that he's gonna be famous It's fuckin' hilarious, sustaining a sound that people love And stayin' around through the changes, I don't judge (nah) But I think I'd remember somebody with that much potential Essential to rap is producing and oh Did I mention? He does that too (wow) Big fuckin' news I used to rap and my brother he used to produce It's fucking common, no Common, no Lamar It's comedy fated to lose (true) This dude is wasting his youth Yeah, I heard from a friend that he moved to LA To be a writer for movies Indecisive, I'm sure it'll show in his music He probably just ain't all there [Interlude] [Verse 6] Listen I never been this far from home I never felt so damn alone I never saw light, bleedin' and feedin' my—no, no, no Fuck the excuses there is none I'm exhausted, I'm thoroughly forging a memoir To me and to all of who's listening I apologize mom, may, dad and to anyone else I neglected I'm sorry, its just... There are things that I needed to say Problems I had in my brain but in efforts I've made to express 'em I created more pain, all of this shit was in vain I feel like cuttin' a vein, wit no cauterizing, down the river I may have been bitter but babe You ain't infectin' my days Truthfully, I did dwell on it often But put to rest is that restless mistake So don't get confused, I wrote k for me Not for you, k? Miss Take Let's compare where we're both at in 10 years I'll savor the tears, so flavorful My hate filled behind bars, a table-full Our fate paved to way to this heinous place cause that pain it pull So I paint with dull nouns, I'm prayin' they pleasure Illogical? Yes, I do feel under pressure But to anyone else thinkin' my talent-less tales Are elaborate lies over-hyping my life Wantin' to see if I'm real Come find out, I'm right here [Chorus] I've lost my way, lost myself If they come, tell 'em I'm in this hell Break me please, I'm unwell This is a cry... (help) |