In This One, I’m Dead
| Title | In This One, I’m Dead |
|---|---|
| Artist | Daymeus |
| Album | You’ve Heard Worse |
| Release Date | 2018-04-27 |
| Description | This is a worse case scenario of what could have happened following all the events that took place before and during my first year or so in LA. It’s also the turning point in the album, where I decide to not give up on everything. The skit and the second half is about me taking over the girl, Emma, in an attempt to live a little more. Super conceptional |
| Lyrics | [Intro: Daymeus] That chair, from beneath, I just kick it [Verse 1: Daymeus] I've gone and done it I didn't think that I'd follow through, I didn't This can't be fuckin' happening I wanted to be free, I mean, I guess, yeah I do look quite at peace But I'm thinkin' regret gonna kick in, jeez I should of seen this comin', oh fuck me You had to seen this comin' You've been fuckin' listening, yes, you You heard the rest, the me, depressed You voyeur, the spoken, hopeless, jests, finessed I'm more of the blame, I guess, when I think about it (oof) I'm sorry I'm feelin heat, is this hell? Yeah, maybe I deserve this, I know well But fuck, they could turn down the furnace I'm here, shit, clearly I earned it My sternum is burnin', I'm sweating Heavy, this is, to reflect You shouldn't see this, you could care less, huh? You've lost respect for these, I see, friend I'm in the deep end, you don't dive Alive you are and uh A pretty good grasp on just why I'm down low Religion, I deny, no church, I curse Inflict hurt and rely on lies to subside desires I'm selfish, could use a beverage Wanna be sexin' the next girl I lust for crowds like The Hex Girls Blatantly shut-eyed to rules Like that period of time in school when I stole heaps And creeped out the house With my friends with sheets over pillows, ha To wreck shit in the neighborhood Neighbors detested our bull shit Dickish antics and how we never got caught (why?) Cause we're just too smart, clearly Guess I'm a bad boy, forgive me, I live recklessly My life's heinous—shit You might also likeI'm not even alive anymore Mom, dad, Maygan, Connor I just fuckin' left them Fuck You fuckin' knew didn't you, mute? I opened up to you, you heard all the warnings signs But you'd rather be entertained By me pourin' all of my brain out, I'm nothing now See, I won't ever write again Songs or notes, lyrics, or books No more jokes, I can't provoke folks I'll never travel the globe I'll never know what it's like to be a father To have me a daughter or son I'm in a slumber I won't wake from I don't even know if anyone's listening when I talk Some poor fuck will find me Cops will phone my fam, they'll all be crying You feeling guilty yet, listening? You sorta did this to me Now, there will be a funeral people attend and that'll be the end I'll turn into an anecdote, somebody somebody use to know He died, a rope, took his own life A long time ago, damn [Chorus: Daymeus] I see me fallin' slowly I taste that bitter poison I feel it coming to an end, still I hear You don't really miss home, these are open seems Fall in love with those tears, leave it, let them bleed Blurred in all of these lies, is it them or me? Still I hear this Nanananana na nananana na Nanananana na nananana na Nanananana na nananana na Nana nana na [Skit] Richard: Will you sit down Emma, you're makin' me nervous Emma: Richard, shut up. I literally only brought you so you couldn't tell mom I left you home alone Richard: I'm 16, I don't need a fucking babysitter. And I came on my own free will Emma: Oh my god. Jared, are you finished yet? This house—this room freaking gives me chills Jared: Yeah, babe, just a few more pictures. This shit's gonna look so fucking dope on my blog Emma: Okay, just hurry Richard: You know... my friend from school says Daymeus's family moved out right away cause he started haunting this place. That's why no one moved in Emma: I swear to god, Richard Richard: No, no, no, not like horror movie haunted. I mean, it was his family. But like, they would constantly hear moving around in his room and music would randomly turn on and off Jared: Rich, that was probably the most basic ghost story I've ever heard in my life Richard: Really? That you've ever heard? Jared: Yeah Richard: That's pretty bold Jared: I know Emma: I can't believe it's been 3 years. I remember seeing him around school when I was a freshman and he was a senior Jared: Guys, guys, this is a fucking rope Richard: Oh shit Emma: Where'd you find that? Jared: That closet door just sorta fucking creeped open and it was just laying on the ground Richard: You don't think that's the rope that he... Emma: Guys, this was a mistake. I think we should leave Jared: Emma! Richard: What's happening to her? Jared: I don't know Richard: Emma! Emma: What?? Richard: Emma! Jared: Richard, call your parents Emma: Guys, you're scaring me. Guys! Hello? [Interlude: Emma] What's happening? I can see but... I can't control myself This doesn't feel like... me Where am I? Am I dead? [Verse 2: Daymeus & Emma] This is so wrong, I know I feel I'm in control This darkness, deep inside of me Actions they won't condone I feel so cheated Don't think I was meant to be here tonight Internal bleeding but I don't think I put up a fight This is all I've wanted This is all I've dreamt Where has my time went? Why am I saying these... [Chorus: Emma & Daymeus] I see me fallin' slowly I taste that bitter poison I feel it coming to an end, still I hear You don't really miss home, these are open seems Fall in love with those tears, leave it, let them bleed Blurred in all of these lies, is it them or me? Still I hear this Nanananana na nananana na Nanananana na nananana na Nanananana na nananana na Nana nana na Nanananana na nananana na Nanananana na nananana na Nanananana na nananana na Nana nana na Nanananana na nananana na Nanananana na nananana na Nanananana na—(Shh) |