Real Friends (And The Struggle With Paranoia)
Title | Real Friends (And The Struggle With Paranoia) |
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Artist | Texican |
Album | Untitled Sandia Project |
Release Date | 2021-08-11 |
Description | Real Friends (And The Struggle With Paranoia) is the fifth song on Untitled Sandia Project, the first full length mixtape by rapper Texican. It was released as part of “The Departure” on August 11, 2021. It focuses on how Tex sees his friends, how he doesn’t know if the friendships he holds are real despite his best efforts to have hope. |
Lyrics | [Verse 1] Stuck in my delusions I'm thinking now that I've heard it all Feel like popping pills maybe Focalin or some Adderall Now should I really trust people cause trust just feels so magical Real friends know that both death and grief are part collateral They ain't know you They ain't know me They ain't know the whole truth They ain't know the whole thing Do you think that your friends care about your career Do you think that you pushed them away, that's fear That's anger Paranoia sneaking up on me and it lingers Voices in my head telling me you in danger Wake up all depressed cause these people seem like angels But really they just dangle you from a cliff Do you have friends, I ask myself Yeah I have friends, I say right back Do you have real friends, no don't lie now C'mon now let's change that subject But you have real friends that you like, now? They got your back, they don't gripe, now Do they stay to the end, when your time's out? You don't have real friends, that's a lie now [Chorus] And lord I tell myself Don't let other people try To take you off that throne But my worst foe is still my mind And lord I tell myself Let your own true colors shine But will they answer me Or are these people just one side And lord I tell myself Don't let other people try To take you off that throne But my worst foe is still my mind And lord I tell myself Let your own true colors shine But they don't know, no they don't know I think their truths are lies [Verse 2] Tell me now. Why you say they truths lie? Is it trust, an issue, man I don't get you Talk about a real problem They don't hear what you say when they'll forget you Turn your sides, left and right Pay no mind, I'm tryna find some comfort They don't like how you are when you're upset Is it me or am I feeling the sweat Rolling down, it's getting hotter in here Eyes are staring, ears are trying to hear When and if I turn around the corner They'll just put they shield up when I'm on them I text you on Friday what you're doin Said that you were workin after 2 Come to find out you were never on shift What the fuck I thought that you'd be honest I don't have the slightest hint or clue Life long or just recent I presume Hopefully I'm over all this soon But I'm feeling it'll only just resume I do not feel these people are loyal They ain't like I live with paranoia I know they won't feel a bit remorseful But just look at me, I am not normal You might also like[Chorus] And lord I tell myself Don't let other people try To take you off that throne But my worst foe is still my mind And lord I tell myself Let your own true colors shine But will they answer me Or are these people just one side And lord I tell myself Don't let other people try To take you off that throne But my worst foe is still my mind And lord I tell myself Let your own true colors shine But they don't know, no they don't know I think their truths are lies [Bridge] And I know you've been so lost But if you please could just understand me Yes I know it's been so hard But if you listen you can understand And I know it's been so long You know all these people really just wanna hold on But lemme just tell you So you should see That it's in It's in It's in my mind! [Chorus] And lord I tell myself Don't let other people try To take you off that throne But my worst foe is still my mind (It's in my mind!) And lord I tell myself Let your own true colors shine But will they answer me Or are these people just one side (It's in my mind!) And lord I tell myself Don't let other people try To take you off that throne But my worst foe is still my mind And lord I tell myself Let your own true colors shine But they don't know, no they don't know |